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My little FIREfighter… @the station with Tio Pipe :))

Man oh man… talk about mixed emotions… As time goes by and the wedding date rapidly approaches, here we are making plans about our future, finishing details, moving forward not only in our lives as becoming husband and wife, but as a family, including new city, new church, new friends, new jobs, new school, new everything and I can’t wait for all this to happen, however, today I took a minute to think about the things I will be leaving behind and… can’t help to feel emotional.

Nico and I dream about our new place and even though we don’t have it yet, we’ve spent hours making plans in regards to design and decoration, and he is so awesome, he is willing to share a “Texan Corner” with me, so we went to a flea market and bought some things that will remind me of the big state… a boot, a Texan Star, a cowboy sign, etc, and I think it will look awesome next to our new fireplace… but as we gather all this wonderful things I realized I never thought it would be this hard to leave Texas, I didn’t know how attached I had become to the big state in the past 12 years, after all, this has been home for a little over a decade and very important things have happened under this sky.

This morning, I googled Chicago, I read blogs from people saying what a wonderful place it was, all the wonderful things it has, the cold winters and mild summers, lake Michigan and Millennium Park, the Sears Tower, the museums and even the zoo. I think it is an awesome place, it reminds me of my hometown, however, a thousand questions popped into my mind… am I ready to move? Would I be able to handle it? How about the boys? And my brother? God… so many things going through my mind… would I be tough enough to be able to handle it all?

Somehow I feel like I felt the first time I left Colombia, with the difference this time I DO want to move…. I guess the only thing I can do is leave it to God and trust He will make it happen and it will be as smooth as it can be… right??

Today I was able to sit back and take a look at the past 6 months and all the craziness that they brought along…

Six months ago I was a prisoner of fears, of broken dreams, of a comfort zone, and even a deep depression, but today, I am a woman full of dreams and expectations, ready to start building a future next to a wonderful man but ALWAYS holding on to my Father’s hand…. I am free to live, dream, laugh, love and be loved!

I am not going to lie… I am scared, and sometimes anxious of the tomorrow, but I am determined to enjoy every step of the way, all the preparations, plans, and everything that will take to plan our wedding, and then, becoming citizens of a Chocolate Factory!

God did turn something bad into something REALLY good, and I am thankful for that…

With my love

nicolasnieto:

Great pics, Sad reality! http://www.boston.com/bigpicture/2010/02/earthquake_in_chile.html